128. Seven roadkill

I.

The flowers are dry now

two days after I picked them 

from a trash can in the dirty alley.

White with violet edges,

they didn’t belong

exactly where they were.

I have many prayers 

circling my hands.

 

II.

Bigger than I’d expected,

that beaver lay

like a large dog 

rolled up against

concrete fencing the bridge.

I touched his fur, 

left a dry rose, felt

someone had to.

Trucks were in a hurry.

Under strong sunshine, his fur

radiated cool.

 

III.

A voice rose sharply

ripping off the night silence,

caroming between red brick

buildings before rising

high enough to dissolve.

I rode it three blocks

arrested by its gall,

then lost it on a time curve.

 

IV.

In the dream you died

beside me.  I wish

you would quit 

shagging night roads–

I wake sticking 

to cotton, sweat cold.

 

V.

Cars lined up all the way 

on back to Grayling Creek

waiting for men to clear

viscera and motorcycle parts

off black tar.

Giant Sand rocking,

earth-roughened brown fingers

tapping, I watched buffalo

graze an oxbow

of the Madison

remembering, 

ten years ago,

a double rainbow

that touched down here;

apparently not a mark for 

this guy’s pot of gold,

this man whose heart

whose brain

bit the road.

 

The ambulance

drove away slowly,

slowly… 

a bad sign 

so I crossed myself.

 

VI.

Out on the island birds sing

all winter long

disregarding cold snow

that hangs them up in trees.

Squirrels don’t get hit

by cars, nor beavers

and the deer are shy.

Whole days move aside

when I walk there,

remembering rich bouquets

of woody solitude

while fear drives by

overhead on I-90,

reasonably and prudent.

 

VII.

The dogs hung out

catching wind, wild

with the odor of cattle

in their warm snouts.

Sixteen hours north

of my own take-off,

curiosity met the horizon,

flat interest,

roadkill.

101. in my dreams

.

last night i picked up

the phone but you were still dead.

you keep calling me

.

though it’s hard to hear

your words this way, hard to trade

old photos of our

.

heroes, your new collage,

my aimlessly wandering  

with found objects and

.

tribal members. your

brother is angry and P 

is angry with me

.

which is easier. 

i’m fine. i’ve seen your face on

strangers in philly

.

and once in DC … you

winked at me, no less – nice touch

and every time

.

i inscribe three dots

on the bottom of a clay 

pot i smile for you 

.

now untouchable.

it’s always nice to hear from 

you. it’s just hard to

.

understand over this phone.

i’ve reserved a place for you 

in my dreams tonight.