130. Night owl

Because one owl’s soft hoot eases out from the wood,

leaves pause their evening flutter.

The last finch tucks down against a branch.

The only thing moving is that moon, slowly,

slowly rising through velvety dusk.

Now we are all suspended together 

just above the ground of a world’s constant motion,

suspended together in a holy 

state of waiting, 

waiting together, breath

shallow and slowed for absolute silence, 

absolute hope.

 

The faintest reply eventually

drifts in over treetops,

silver light smooth as stone and

no more than the smallest rustle

passed in dying undergrowth,

 

and with the one answering owl’s soft call, 

night is released from its patient

pause, from such

absolute stillness, 

such peculiar hope.

129. Wyoming

We’ve got six rigs

flung in a haphazard parking 

pattern marking headquarters.

One guy’s loading lath

and a woman needs flagging tape

and the others, they just want maps.

Oskar is reading a fat book

on the history of archaeological thought 

or forensic archaeology

or Che Guevara

in the front seat of his Pathfinder

but the rest are more like,

well, older.  I flick a butt

in his direction.

            Don’t you know where you are?

I ask.

He looks around at the horizon of trailers.

He looks down at the smoking

cigarette butt

and over at two people tiptoeing

between dog shit to reach the lath

and he says,

smiling gently,

            no.

128. Seven roadkill

I.

The flowers are dry now

two days after I picked them 

from a trash can in the dirty alley.

White with violet edges,

they didn’t belong

exactly where they were.

I have many prayers 

circling my hands.

 

II.

Bigger than I’d expected,

that beaver lay

like a large dog 

rolled up against

concrete fencing the bridge.

I touched his fur, 

left a dry rose, felt

someone had to.

Trucks were in a hurry.

Under strong sunshine, his fur

radiated cool.

 

III.

A voice rose sharply

ripping off the night silence,

caroming between red brick

buildings before rising

high enough to dissolve.

I rode it three blocks

arrested by its gall,

then lost it on a time curve.

 

IV.

In the dream you died

beside me.  I wish

you would quit 

shagging night roads–

I wake sticking 

to cotton, sweat cold.

 

V.

Cars lined up all the way 

on back to Grayling Creek

waiting for men to clear

viscera and motorcycle parts

off black tar.

Giant Sand rocking,

earth-roughened brown fingers

tapping, I watched buffalo

graze an oxbow

of the Madison

remembering, 

ten years ago,

a double rainbow

that touched down here;

apparently not a mark for 

this guy’s pot of gold,

this man whose heart

whose brain

bit the road.

 

The ambulance

drove away slowly,

slowly… 

a bad sign 

so I crossed myself.

 

VI.

Out on the island birds sing

all winter long

disregarding cold snow

that hangs them up in trees.

Squirrels don’t get hit

by cars, nor beavers

and the deer are shy.

Whole days move aside

when I walk there,

remembering rich bouquets

of woody solitude

while fear drives by

overhead on I-90,

reasonably and prudent.

 

VII.

The dogs hung out

catching wind, wild

with the odor of cattle

in their warm snouts.

Sixteen hours north

of my own take-off,

curiosity met the horizon,

flat interest,

roadkill.

18. i remember

remember the

feel of grass blown against lean

thighs, hot scent of dirt.

i remember each

breath we breathed of each other’s

under the blanket.

i remember you

and wonder who am I, who

am I now: pale, lost.

i remember language

of seasons, timber cracking

of cold, rivers sighing.

now I have nothing.

no one now knows the thread counts

woven together, 

breath of one wind, our

beat of one old earth heart, one

longing cloud’s soft moan … 

i remember when

i belonged against the earth, 

brown and dusty.