128. Seven roadkill

I.

The flowers are dry now

two days after I picked them 

from a trash can in the dirty alley.

White with violet edges,

they didn’t belong

exactly where they were.

I have many prayers 

circling my hands.

 

II.

Bigger than I’d expected,

that beaver lay

like a large dog 

rolled up against

concrete fencing the bridge.

I touched his fur, 

left a dry rose, felt

someone had to.

Trucks were in a hurry.

Under strong sunshine, his fur

radiated cool.

 

III.

A voice rose sharply

ripping off the night silence,

caroming between red brick

buildings before rising

high enough to dissolve.

I rode it three blocks

arrested by its gall,

then lost it on a time curve.

 

IV.

In the dream you died

beside me.  I wish

you would quit 

shagging night roads–

I wake sticking 

to cotton, sweat cold.

 

V.

Cars lined up all the way 

on back to Grayling Creek

waiting for men to clear

viscera and motorcycle parts

off black tar.

Giant Sand rocking,

earth-roughened brown fingers

tapping, I watched buffalo

graze an oxbow

of the Madison

remembering, 

ten years ago,

a double rainbow

that touched down here;

apparently not a mark for 

this guy’s pot of gold,

this man whose heart

whose brain

bit the road.

 

The ambulance

drove away slowly,

slowly… 

a bad sign 

so I crossed myself.

 

VI.

Out on the island birds sing

all winter long

disregarding cold snow

that hangs them up in trees.

Squirrels don’t get hit

by cars, nor beavers

and the deer are shy.

Whole days move aside

when I walk there,

remembering rich bouquets

of woody solitude

while fear drives by

overhead on I-90,

reasonably and prudent.

 

VII.

The dogs hung out

catching wind, wild

with the odor of cattle

in their warm snouts.

Sixteen hours north

of my own take-off,

curiosity met the horizon,

flat interest,

roadkill.

125. Hitching a ride

She’s swung in backwash,

turbulent storms of exhausting

broadcasts, night preachers

from Houston and radios of atmosphere

dedicated on the plucked lawns of childhood,

what is right in a movie and

wrong for the flesh that heart

pushes her blood toward all day.

            Because men own guns

            they own women

            and earth like 

            their own beards

            Because women own guns

            they own men

            and grass like 

            their own eyelashes …

So many fences, tying ideas to earth.

She stays on the wrong side

of the highway, diesel trucks honking

a leer at her skinny brown legs.

 

She just walks, looking

for something not tied to her.

All she can use is about

one square yard

at a time.

123. Caged

Behind the grey chain 

link fence, a coyote who has worn out 

the grass all over. When I stop to look 

he trots to a worn adobe shell

staring sideways,

            hating me.  

I let my hands hang, claw fingers stuck 

to the sun-hot links, let

my 

            hate 

flay a world that would catch

a coyote, weave wire around and

give him nothing but a shell

of white-washed mud

to contain his fear

            and shelter his hate.

 

The force of his eyes blew holes in the adobe.

In the dark his brothers sing wild hymns.

 

They say he was injured, that 

            this

is how they saved him,

death assumed to be less

than any life.

It can’t be true.

119. Weeks in One Room

 

he died loose in town

short of air, a son and humility,

black hair sprayed on pavement.

 

metal aids gave back his breath

but took half his stomach in trade,

some old fungus, separate

leaves on the branch

off the trunk of his only body.

a worthwhile trade.

 

does he refigure birth

on this late cusp of rebirth

counting the son in a past life?

did he speak to angels?

he says no.  he heard

every word in spanish

the nurses, tv

but they weren’t speaking it.

he doesn’t either.

colors were dense,

saturated with fever, drugs

or else something, and

 every dark hispanic woman

was achingly beautiful.

because he said 

mexico

as a short cut to 

santa fe, 

they thought his head damaged.

they held him, held to him

the head of his own in some shock

for an extra week.

 

he thought he had it straight.

he is surprised to realize

he could have been so confused

in such a small space, one room.

but he notes all the space

held in time.

118. Long Hair

When I took 

what came to me 

I took 

Idaho pool halls with 

old men coughing phlegm 

and young men staring bullets

at serapes, bare feet,

at bracelets,

at our beer crossing the wood bar.

Neon flashed our long hair

into snakes of flying highways.

 

When I took 

what came to me

I took Quebec-quoi love songs in RV’s 

rocking under original tunes

 and the brown eyed boy 

thinking out loud in accented English

into my long hair,

limp from acrobatic highways.

 

When I took what came to me

I took 

bottle flies crawling corners

of bloodshot eyes beside ditches.

I took

thick fog holding my arms in gloom

under sequoia canopies.

I took fish

offered from withered hands 

under California cardboard. 

 

When I took 

what came to me

I took 

crowds behind glass under stars,

sweet smoke long in my lungs

 and a pull off Glen Fiddich,

overlooking unpaved highways

scratching and scraping their way.

I took 

red earth against my damp cheek

smelling of safety when I woke at dawn

beside graveyards prickling

the air with white stones. 

 

When I took what came to me, I took

what came, 

satiated by novas of my own 

flirtation, inhaling with abandon 

the exhaust 

of winding highways, 

clouds in my 

long hair.