107. my aunts

.

my aunts look like my

mother as they age, lovely

eyes and smiles that blow

all the fuses. their blood

pulses ancestral coal and tin, skin

slick with a ranch’s fresh

stench of branding: in this case

.

colts and

madness and

– oddly –

social justice a rich seam, shot through

the bedrock of calving and misogyny.

.

rage and shame, too, evenly laid,

thin but

persistent lodes snaking

through each sister.

.

how alive two are yet, how 

men stunted them all,

the girls. 

now they fade.

they stare out across dry lawns,

all the colts broken

.

and we cousins sigh,

softly and half lost like the ranch

left fallow for our

winter.

71. Ties That Bind

I am so lucky not to

love my sister’s husband.

I would steal him if I loved him, no

mercy would survive, my blood is thinner 

than semen, my morality

more sicilian than german, my

passions glow alizaron crimson.

I would have to

fuck him to oblivion the way a virgin

simply could not do.

.

Walking her to the altar

is something

I can do for my sister.

.