128. Seven roadkill

I.

The flowers are dry now

two days after I picked them 

from a trash can in the dirty alley.

White with violet edges,

they didn’t belong

exactly where they were.

I have many prayers 

circling my hands.

 

II.

Bigger than I’d expected,

that beaver lay

like a large dog 

rolled up against

concrete fencing the bridge.

I touched his fur, 

left a dry rose, felt

someone had to.

Trucks were in a hurry.

Under strong sunshine, his fur

radiated cool.

 

III.

A voice rose sharply

ripping off the night silence,

caroming between red brick

buildings before rising

high enough to dissolve.

I rode it three blocks

arrested by its gall,

then lost it on a time curve.

 

IV.

In the dream you died

beside me.  I wish

you would quit 

shagging night roads–

I wake sticking 

to cotton, sweat cold.

 

V.

Cars lined up all the way 

on back to Grayling Creek

waiting for men to clear

viscera and motorcycle parts

off black tar.

Giant Sand rocking,

earth-roughened brown fingers

tapping, I watched buffalo

graze an oxbow

of the Madison

remembering, 

ten years ago,

a double rainbow

that touched down here;

apparently not a mark for 

this guy’s pot of gold,

this man whose heart

whose brain

bit the road.

 

The ambulance

drove away slowly,

slowly… 

a bad sign 

so I crossed myself.

 

VI.

Out on the island birds sing

all winter long

disregarding cold snow

that hangs them up in trees.

Squirrels don’t get hit

by cars, nor beavers

and the deer are shy.

Whole days move aside

when I walk there,

remembering rich bouquets

of woody solitude

while fear drives by

overhead on I-90,

reasonably and prudent.

 

VII.

The dogs hung out

catching wind, wild

with the odor of cattle

in their warm snouts.

Sixteen hours north

of my own take-off,

curiosity met the horizon,

flat interest,

roadkill.

117. In A Perfect World

 

When old women stop taking 

care of children and pets and 

grown boys and houses they may

notice the age of their hands and 

wonder why they look like the hands

of grandmothers when their minds 

are still young and harbor dreams.

 

When old women have no one 

to feed except themselves,

the mirror may become a study 

of how so many memories could fit 

into such a compact body, and shrinking.

 

When old women rest they may find

beauty in the strange rhythms

of a lifetime, though they may have 

composed a very different symphony 

in a perfect world.

87. four friends

.

four friends love my very bones, 

as if they’d never 

felt my sins 

crack against their shins,

fracture their wrists or

bite hard at their heels.

.

rich with enduring 

mineral (or miracle),

something old and willing

heals each one’s turn at being

broken across the back of 

fear, that blunt instrument.

.

such love … bone

on bone. 

.

82. baseball

.

crowds sound like

storms trundling in from the west,

tinny music one

sad thrilling background that smells

like burgers, hot dogs …

.

remember the crack

of bat, swell of radio 

cheers against cut grass

and a father’s pause

ho, pull on the beer bottle …

the dull humid heat

.

and one fly buzzing

around the grill, buzzing and

that screen door slaps shut. 

79. antlers

.

like antlers inside

the deer’s skull waiting, waiting 

for the time to sprout,

an old discord lies

ready, blueprint laid 

inside my skull, same

.

architecture as 

last year’s discord,

ready to sprout, grow

.

upward into hard 

familiar shapes, tools of 

combat aimed to wound.

.

grown not used, what 

then? do small deer 

curse their useless antlers, 

tools impotent or do they

clean them well against limber 

tree trunks, carry them

indifferently then 

shed the lovely shapes, 

satisfied?

.

may discord 

.

dissolve into

impotent clean shapes,

lovely, rubbed clean

and left discarded in some 

overlooked valley

of friendship.

.