128. Seven roadkill

I.

The flowers are dry now

two days after I picked them 

from a trash can in the dirty alley.

White with violet edges,

they didn’t belong

exactly where they were.

I have many prayers 

circling my hands.

 

II.

Bigger than I’d expected,

that beaver lay

like a large dog 

rolled up against

concrete fencing the bridge.

I touched his fur, 

left a dry rose, felt

someone had to.

Trucks were in a hurry.

Under strong sunshine, his fur

radiated cool.

 

III.

A voice rose sharply

ripping off the night silence,

caroming between red brick

buildings before rising

high enough to dissolve.

I rode it three blocks

arrested by its gall,

then lost it on a time curve.

 

IV.

In the dream you died

beside me.  I wish

you would quit 

shagging night roads–

I wake sticking 

to cotton, sweat cold.

 

V.

Cars lined up all the way 

on back to Grayling Creek

waiting for men to clear

viscera and motorcycle parts

off black tar.

Giant Sand rocking,

earth-roughened brown fingers

tapping, I watched buffalo

graze an oxbow

of the Madison

remembering, 

ten years ago,

a double rainbow

that touched down here;

apparently not a mark for 

this guy’s pot of gold,

this man whose heart

whose brain

bit the road.

 

The ambulance

drove away slowly,

slowly… 

a bad sign 

so I crossed myself.

 

VI.

Out on the island birds sing

all winter long

disregarding cold snow

that hangs them up in trees.

Squirrels don’t get hit

by cars, nor beavers

and the deer are shy.

Whole days move aside

when I walk there,

remembering rich bouquets

of woody solitude

while fear drives by

overhead on I-90,

reasonably and prudent.

 

VII.

The dogs hung out

catching wind, wild

with the odor of cattle

in their warm snouts.

Sixteen hours north

of my own take-off,

curiosity met the horizon,

flat interest,

roadkill.

114. Driving to La Arena

One skull knocks against 

the door frame and both dogs

are on their feet, braced through 

arroyos of rocks climbing up 

tires, those aggressive new tires.

Water bags leap and

a cairn creeps past, a trail

spotted like footprints by hooves

of dry cattle crosses.

 

Ocotillo reach right in so

one dog snaps.

Creosote arms swing trying to

reach right in. One dog snaps

and my cigarette swerves.

A hawk spins, black

tips on blue sky like

periods allowed to 

soar across the page,

 

like following this track

nowhere.

 

Sand fills horizon lines with gold.

45. why horses run like the wind

I run late for a train past

one tall man kneeling to lick

mud from a puddle.

A Portuguese woman wonders,

que hora es, hija?

no sé, I mutter, 

folding myself over my knees, 

no sé tía

and cry all the way to France.

While

two Spaniards in black suits

argue with each other over who gets to 

fuck me                      

                                                            as if 

my oldest heart slices pages 

off of itself and

my hands tangle,

chewing each other up 

chewing each other up

for wanting the 

mud puddle man to be fed.